It is possible now to wake in one place and goÂ
to sleep in another two thousand miles away.
This is one of the more mundane truths of
our modern world, another being the
preponderance of excellent cakes in one
place and their utter lack in another.
The standards of decency and logic
challenged at every turn.
Category: Poems
August 23, 2011
Sunflowers lean over the top of a vase.
Blue sky exults overhead.
My sister pads through this houseÂ
of hers in El Cerrito California.
Another readies her classroom for
the fourth graders who will pourÂ
in next week. Our youngest the
youngest of us all wakes in Tucson Arizona.
Tomorrow night I will be two thousand miles
away again wondering when I will next be
shooting watermelon seeds across the table
at my sisters in a noisy Chinese restaurant.
August 22, 2011
They were here for my party
many of them the great nieces
and nephews a next generation
of family a running laughing
crying chasing crawling climbing
storytelling fabricating inundatingÂ
ruminating obfuscating chaos-makingÂ
extension of my six brothers and sisters
Seda Nico Hako Sasha Rowyn Sylvie Arlo Alaia
well-intentioned loving selves in and out of house
and yard to and fro with their many plans and ideas
taking root flowering falling discarded in favorÂ
of new exciting others that shoot forth
willynilly oh how they wake us from
the dull sleep of adulthood.
August 21, 2011
It is so easy for me to picture my mother
sitting just there in that chairÂ
on the deck of Mary’s houseÂ
in El Cerrito.
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Tapping her fingers lightly
on the arm of the chair
as if to play a tune on the piano
that she no longer played.
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Leaning her head back
closing her eyes
loving to feel the
California sun on her face.
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Shoes on, always, sheÂ
never was one to go barefoot.
How can you stand that? she’d ask me.
Aren’t your feet cold?
Shaking her head as I shook mine no.
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One of the many inconsequential
ways we were different.
I tap my fingers now, I’ve noticed.
But she always had a lighter touch
on the keys than I have.
August 20, 2011
Hibbity bibbity jibbity jo
Over the hills to the town we go.
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Lackety hackety nibbity nob
We go to the shops for bits and bobs.
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Hippity hoppity dimmity dim
Bobs for me and bits for him.
August 19, 2011
The dream was awful
full of old anger ancient grudges
new slights tangled twisted together
into one dark violent morass.
Waking I shake my head free
of it wondering why now why
these old angry hurts why now in
this beautiful place my sister here
with me my ever loyal kind
champion why here and now?
What odd beings we are afterÂ
all with our strange emotions our
intricate confusing brains our frailties theÂ
bizarre theaters of our dreamworlds ourÂ
overburdened hearts our peculiarÂ
infinitesimal idiosyncrasies!
It is a miracle we manage as well
as we do, we crazy humans.
August 18, 2011
Crows and ravens cry in this tiny coastal town.
I wonder how my life might be here by the ocean
with the salt air the constant rush and pull of the sea
over and in and back again across sand and rocks
the ceaseless crash the ennervating murmur theÂ
romance of it the constancy the surety. Â
Would I be rendered immobile lostÂ
to reverie doomed to an unnatural lassitude
living here by the sea? Is that the reason Â
I never managed to settle here?
August 17, 2011
Here in my sister’s California homeÂ
where my mother felt most loved
I do at last feel her calm presence.
My mother felt most at ease, loved, protectedÂ
with Mary. This I know.
While I could always make her laugh
Mary was her heart’s dear companion.
I do feel her comfortably hereÂ
No longer anxious fretful confused
But free, plump, calm
Seeing and hearing the world around her
Loosed from infirmity and worry.
Being.
Simply being.
August 16, 2011
Mesmerized once again byÂ
sun through the morning clouds
a silent fall of rain
the twirling dance of walnut leaves past my window
this cool breeze on my skin
the tiny sounds of a nearby squirrel
my windchimes on the porch
the rustle of the cottonwood tree
I feel all will to go and do other than this
this listening seeing writing
slipping away. More and more I want
to have no obligation but this:Â toÂ
observe and reflect our world.
August 15, 2011
Already flutter down the yellow leaves
of my walnut trees in mid-August an
event reserved for fall. I find theirÂ
innocent turning twirling drift completelyÂ
charming. My neighbor fearful of fallingÂ
walnuts had hers cut down in the prime ofÂ
its large life. I find this unfathomable.
I love the sound of the big green nuts
plunking on the roof of my house or dropping
on the soft earth, oh not as much as I love theÂ
leaf fall but still, that too has taken up lodgingÂ
in the ramshackle boarding house of my heart.