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Risking Everything

Shall we mightn’t we risk

everything in this one short
life we have here right here
right now?  Mustn’t we 
love wholly this perfectly imperfect
world those flawed wandering
souls that grand old tree that
tiny finch the very songs of All?

Must’t we love All 
in the fiercest possible way

give our whole tender hearts gladly
wrapped triumphant in knowing
that this risk this love this tearing
open to reveal a beating heart to
give All while we can in this 
brief slip of time is the grandest
most best onliest chance we will
ever have to be real human beings?

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Birthday Calendar

Snow on the ground

sun in the air

birds crowd the feeder

in noisy chaos.

This is the birthday of

a former lover now gone

from my life, tomorrow

of an old friend now gone

from this world.

Two names on a calendar

of birthdays that elicit

only memories now.

People wander in and away

I continue to feed the birds

the sun continues to shine

or hide, snow falls then stops

years roll along piling up in drifts

behind me leaving me

wondering whose name

will mean what on that calendar

this time next year?

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Packages

Empty teacup at my elbow
Sun pouring through the curtains
Dogs snoozing on the clean bed
Red monk smiles from the wall
My pen scratches across paper
I gather myself for this day that
arrives as always with arms full
of small packages for me to open
if I have my wits about me.

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Gay and Carefree

My mother and my aunt traveled together
with girlfriends when they were young.
Canada, Lake Louise, Banff, Lake Michigan.
Photos show them on beaches laughing
gay carefree my mother beautiful.
Fur coat, marvelous hats, the velvet beaded jacket.
She lived at home, spent her own money on these things.
I remember the words Baked Alaska, chateaubriand.
Cigarettes smoked on the beach, escapades
in Ginny’s car, Bridge Club luncheons.
When my mother was old, her memory failing, it was this
time of her life she seemed to remember best
always with a fond smile.  Her young woman’s freedom.
She married my father, left St. Louis had seven babies
in ten years.  Gone were the hats, the two-piece bathing suit.
She sewed clothes for us on a tiny budget.  
I cannot say how happy she was or wasn’t.