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Lost Friend

Bastille Day is the birthday of a friend

I no longer see no longer hear from

one who moved on made other friends

felt no need or desire for what I had to offer

after all our intimacy and playfulness

the meals cooked together, confidences shared

the easy particularities, the elegant gifts.

I’ve done the same to others though

I should know better having felt

the pain of being the one who is left,

the one no longer needed, the one

surprised by a sudden deep hole.

How carelessly we move through life

how brutally keeping each our own small

universe spinning as needed sloughing off

nonessential bits at random with the

heartless nonchalance of cold untouching planets.

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My Moody Friend

She could be harsh sometimes cruel

like the character in the book we discussed

in book club, negative ugly judging.

But she had extraordinary qualities too

a capacity for loving and accepting

the quirks of those she loved that

far outstripped my own

the playfulness of a child

a consummate sense of humor

a genius for voices accents mimicry

incredible talent with words.

Slammed the phone down in

my ear more times than I can number

and yet I counted myself lucky

to say she was my friend.

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Two Lives

A rainy dreary day as I take my friend

for radiation wondering if every day

breaks bleakly facing cancer hair loss

radiation God knows what else?

And me with my happy circumstances

old wounds healed afterglow of my sons

reunited here at home with me

my Peter with his lovely Karen and

oh the contrast of one life to another

at a given point in time can be breathtaking.

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Birthday Calendar

Snow on the ground

sun in the air

birds crowd the feeder

in noisy chaos.

This is the birthday of

a former lover now gone

from my life, tomorrow

of an old friend now gone

from this world.

Two names on a calendar

of birthdays that elicit

only memories now.

People wander in and away

I continue to feed the birds

the sun continues to shine

or hide, snow falls then stops

years roll along piling up in drifts

behind me leaving me

wondering whose name

will mean what on that calendar

this time next year?