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Home

Home once again knowing

that these many excursions away

provide me with the solid love of place

that some might never fully enjoy

the soft details, the particular contours of

this house this bed the blue living room sofa

with its pillows the lace curtains that I chose myself

the rugs underfoot the bits of thing wanted looked for found

in this drawer in that cupboard that closet

whose door might not close properly or perfectly but

is nevertheless one’s own and therefore dear

the two old walnut trees already bare

the porch railing wanting paint

the front door purple because I made it so

the wooden floors that squeak familiarly here

and exactly there just as I know they do and will

the fireplace with those holes in the chinking that

prevent its use, those holes that I’ve studied for

twenty years of evenings from where I’ve sat

upon that blue sofa always thinking

One day I’ll fill those holes and I’ll lay a cozy fire

knowing full well that I most likely never will.

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A Heroine

Looking over my life I see a rich panoply

of people and things scattered across time

through place a fullness a trove

of stories schemes disparate but

intricately connected seeking a fierce

new heroine fitted out and eager

for adventure ready for the next big thing.

Where oh where can she be?

 

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Small House

Of a mind to purge and clean and somehow turn my small house

into a brilliant soaring space spread with tall clear windows

revealing masses of sunlight, the traverse of the moon, the habits

of trees, convergence of planets, partnering of birds, flight of bees

the ceilings so high that all my remarkable ideas and lofty plans

have room to float high and higher gathering courage, bursting

with aplomb, becoming ever wilder, freer than even they

could have imagined, before being caught on paper and

brought to life for others to see and know and love.

 

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At the Thrift Shop

At the thrift shop the ladies eddy and swirl

around racks of newly brought out winter coats

scarves and hats dragged out to the sidewalk

on this unseasonably hot day.  A woman I recognize

pulls her long car up to the sidewalk, a regular

about whom something is slightly off, calls out

in her over-familiar way to the volunteers

I haven’t been coming because I miss my husband.  

I just wanted to let you know.  Has he died then and

left this somewhat confused woman on her own?

How and what will she do?

I realize with regret that I’ve steadfastly avoided

her friendly chatter in the past simply because she’s odd.

I feel the chill of shame even under this wool coat

on this unseasonably hot October day.

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Lights

New aspiration possibly finally headed in the

right direction which is to be the sort of person

whose cheerful elvish self pops out the sun in

others’ brains, the sort whose own lights shine

true and clear on a scary street like the windows

of a cozy little home in a dark wood

fire in the hearth each lost soul welcomed

with a cup of tea and comfy chair

no questions no hesitation no requirement.

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Walnut Leaves

Still waiting for all the beauty to stop but no

the yellow walnut leaves continue their twirl and dance

past my window, sun insists on cascading down

and this generous sky paints its signature shade of blue

behind the many tall trees waving their graceful arms

(at me?  I think so, yes) gaily swinging their vines

to and fro and what am I supposed to do,

thus entranced, how do I wrench myself away

from this humble little window sitting here

quietly minding its own business relentlessly

displaying these magnificent small wonders

on and on and on, no end in sight?

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Decision

To decide to end this dispiriting endeavor

is nevertheless oddly difficult though

I have done a similar thing before and know

so deeply that it is high time, high enough

that I can see over the ridge and beyond

to the city of my heart where I long to live.