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Not Exactly It

Sixty new things I said I’d do

in my sixtieth year now

a burden a chore an albatross

not the thrilling party I’d envisioned.

The fried pig’s head so unappealing

the various cocktails disappointing

the left side of the bed unsettling

my whistling ever yet sub par

the skydive still looming

and with five weeks left

forty-seven down, thirteen to go

the inner nagging does not let up.

What else what next what’s new?

I’ll try making marshmallows

dye my hair purple

learn fifty new words

and when at last this year is over

return to Life As Usual

no promise no pressure no pact

each new encounter a lovely surprise

undertaken for the sheer joy of it.

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Waterfall

Slap happy to see him she

threw her arms about his neck

reaching on tiptoe to do so

every wrinkle of the past smoothed

temporarily out with the sheer surprise

the childlike guileless smile spreading

without thought defense or hesitation

the happy upturned edges of her mouth

plumping up her cheeks like a baby’s

the eyes, their four eyes and likely

those of all who watched feasting on

the details each of the other and all of it

just all of it with the sensation of standing

beneath a cool waterfall tumbling over

washing away every speck of dust and grime

filling their very pores with a tender freshness

giving Hope to everyone looking on.

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Gone

One tiny whiff of a certain cedar shrub whooshes me

back to Huntington Street and a picket fence around

my grandparents’ yard where we kids made our own games.

My sister and I picked plums from the tree at the back fence

the neighbor advising us to make baskets of our skirts

my grandmother then scolding us for doing so

and using some choice words for her neighbor.

She did make anyway jars and jars of plum jelly

that none of us particularly liked but ate halfheartedly.

Two white Adirondack chairs sat in the backyard

always filled on a warm summer evening by the adults,

my grandparents, my parents or my aunt though

we girls sometimes perched on the wide flat arms.

A square contraption of a clothesline that turned,

a cloth sack of wooden clothespins, an apple basket

lined with cloth that my grandmother used for laundry,

a chimneyed red brick barbecue where my grandfather

and later my aunt grilled bratwurst and hot dogs,

all those things long ago fallen into disrepair

and discarded, the adults of my memories dead and gone

and surely the cedar shrubs from which all this springs

have since died of old age and been replaced by

azaleas or blue hydrangeas.

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Commencement

Placing myself on a long quiet strip of land and sand

somewhere, Cape Cod, Maine, Newfoundland

some beach, some rocky shore removed, remote.

I remember two late summer days spent alone

on the farthest tip of Cape Cod, the quiet,

the breakwater of huge stones arcing out

into the sea leading to a spit of land that

when the tide came in would be covered over

the frisson of danger as I stepped across

the elegance of the flat square stones underfoot

the luxury of being alone in that place

taking my own time, needing neither

to come nor go nor eat nor drink by

another’s lights, clock, whim or desire

needing nothing at all but that exact place in

that perfect time with only the sea and the shore

for company a beginning I did not recognize then

for what it was–the graceful commencement of my present.

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Tomatoes

My summer pursuit of a wondrously succulent

perfectly tasty homegrown tomato has so far yielded

only close seconds and I, eager and desirous, move

from stall to stall at the Farmer’s Market, bag in hand

relentlessly seeking, searching, oh yes that’s right

I am a seeker a pilgrim in search of that Holy Grail of the garden

a perfect orb of delectability misshapen or blemished about to burst

yellow pink or red exotic varietal heirloom or solid predictable standby

no matter at all to me you farmers you gardeners just serve me up

a sweet acidic meaty juicy yum of tomato and I will hand over my dollars.

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Lost Friend

Bastille Day is the birthday of a friend

I no longer see no longer hear from

one who moved on made other friends

felt no need or desire for what I had to offer

after all our intimacy and playfulness

the meals cooked together, confidences shared

the easy particularities, the elegant gifts.

I’ve done the same to others though

I should know better having felt

the pain of being the one who is left,

the one no longer needed, the one

surprised by a sudden deep hole.

How carelessly we move through life

how brutally keeping each our own small

universe spinning as needed sloughing off

nonessential bits at random with the

heartless nonchalance of cold untouching planets.

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Acts of God

This dry heat is killing the redbud trees.

You see them around town patched yellow

or completely brown, bewildered, I imagine.

I heard about the 7-year drought of Texas

in the fifties, rivers dried up, grass-fed cattle

dying, ranchers giving up and moving

to town to take up other trades.

When the rain finally came it would not stop.

Floods tore through the state wreaking

more havoc and another kind of destruction.

Some would call these things acts of God.

On today’s radio there are stories about the

failing corn crop, the soybeans that might

not make it, a crusty farmer’s voice saying

Now we’re just waiting on the good Lord.

But I like to imagine a God who neither acts

out of spite nor deals out cards good or bad,

but one who hopes for the best

wishes we could bloody well get it right

and whose patience far outlasts our own.